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| SO everyone knows that a relationship is based on trust. No matter what kind of relationship it is. Well one thing that people fail to realize is that it is also about compromise. If a relationship is really worth it, if you really want it to work, you are truly willing to compromise. What happens when you do want to anymore, what happens when you feel that you have just to your behavior, or what happens when that person asks the same question over and over.... you hold your tongue and bottle it in.
uhhh, sometimes like the old saying.... I can do bad all by myself... but being alone is alone.
sidenote: today i have the most blogs in one day | | |
| Xanga,
Lately, I have been feeling down. Back into another day or so of depression. WHat's the problem you maybe wondering (same shit different day). I feel like I have no friends. It's so sad. I tried to call Doris today, the one and only friend that I have but she didn't answer. So tonight I sent her an email. Lately, I have also been thinking about Jaymes. I want to forgive him so bad but apart of me believes that it't not time; i can't. He never really even said sorry. But I remember all the good times we had together with Liann, which made me think, when he was my friend is was a pretty good one.
So, onto something else, I'm thinking about rushing. I feel that it is an experience, like running for prom king that I don't want to miss out on. I also feel that I should be more social. Break out of this shell that I have built up against my surroundings.
PREDICTIONS FOR THIS YEAR... umm well I don't feel like making them right now maybe later. oh side note though. SO i bought a waffle maker and I am so juiced. Also a candle, a nice warm bath, and jazzy music can make any stress go away. | | |
| today was a good day... I bought a waffle maker... that made me happy... I'll catch up later, right now I'm really not in the mood to type... | | |
| Once again no one understands the way I feel, besides my best friend Doris. Okay... so yesterday I figured out that Jaymes... my once best friend wrote me a check that bounced and has since been avoiding my calls and text messages. My other roommates seem to not care because they do not want to fuck up their friendship with Jaymes. But they don't mind fucking up our friendship. They also seem to think that I am rich an is able to afford... 286.25x2 a month, because they have not offered to help me with a dime. I know for a fact if it was alex a's money that nigga would be standing at Jaymes' door banging on the door till he is paid every last dime that he is owed. What should I do. I mean okay, don't mess with me and my money, but i also felt betrayed. How can someone that I have know for 7 years do this to me. There is no way that we are ever going back to the way things were. A real, true friend would not do this to me. He would not put me through this. I don't even think I will be able to afford my car, next month.
I hurting inside, and no one seems to care or understand the feelings of the black kid, in a city full of asians. The story of my life, but for how long. This shit is getting hella old. I am tired of this same old bullshit on a different occasion. | | |
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